Thank you from the bottom of my heart my dear loved ones.

It's a miracle. Like what Ceci said in her Xanga (Ceci I'm your Xanga stalker :P), today I truly feel that He's right there watching over me, guiding me. Literally sheding tears again now, not the tears I've had the other day after the Econ exam, not the kind of hysterical crying with rage and regret but tears that silently roll down my cheeks and I feel like going through a catharsis.

I've been telling people that academic result isn't everything, but for years deep indide me, I did care about results, to the extent that it's the only thing in my life, the one and only thing that I would devote my time and attention to. But today, I truly understand why academic result isn't everything, it's a simple logic but I couldn't figure it out until now. I still care about how my A-level exam results will be, but no matter what grades I'm gonna get, they won't rule my life. Even if they're not good grades, they won't take my passion for what I like away from me. They won't take away my determination to do something I want to. As a matter of fact, they may be the only thing I can see on 8th July, but not in my entire life. They're just tiny letters. If they're all As, my road to my asipration may go more smoothly, but if they're not, I can still get there, with more twists and turns on the way. Finally I'll achieve my goal, and what counts is not these letters, but my will.

I've been refraining myself from thinking of bad things since F.7, like "what if I can't get into CU Psy", "what if I can't get into Social Sciences" etc, in the hope that without mentioning it, things will go as I wish. But after the Econ and CLC exam, I started to think of alternatives, I even thought what my life will be like if I have to take High-Dip or Associate, and I realized, it's okay, at least it's not the end of the world. And who said people with university education must succeed?

And after that I'm not scared anymore. He must have better plans for me if my own plan doesn't work. And at the end I'll get what I want with my own ability. And if I truly love Psy, and if I can't get into CU Psy in 2005 Sept, I can still earn enough money to finance myself in 2008 or 2010 or 2020.

It's not the end of the world, and how pathetic is that to let 5 letters to rule your life.

The fiasco in Econ and uncertainty about CLC have given me fear and depression, but after all, I get something and this something mean much more than 2As to me. I've got strength to make alternative plans for myself, I've got the courage to conquer the subjects to come, I've got the feeling of security that I stop thinking of my papers after they're collected, I've got the feeling of warmth from all the phone calls, e-mails, ICQ offline messages from people who care about me, I've got the assurance from my parents no matter what I did.

I've grown up. I'm changed. And this change is the best among all the changes I've undergone.

Success is not narrowly defined as academic achievements, maybe good grades can really lead me to a wider and smoother road, but with twists and turns, I can still walk as long as I'm alive.

Success, to me now, is not the high mark on my report card, but the fact that I've paid effort.

And I must say big thank yous to these people

Mom and Dad, you two are the best.

Fanny, after talking to you I feel much better, things I wanna say have been sent to you as ICQ offline messages...hee

Alin, thank you for being always by my side.

Angie, thank you, even though we're apart, you never fail to show me love and care.

Pinky, thank you for talking to me on ICQ, your long messages mean so much to me.

Daniel, I'm so grateful and lucky to be your Econ student for 4 years, you're truly the best teacher I've ever had. Even my school teachers won't post a AL Reminder with all the caring tips, but you did and that meant a lot to me.

Ann, I dunno who you are, I only know that you're truly a nice person who remember the F.7 St.Marians, thank you for dedicating songs to us right before the listening exam.

Mandy, lucky to have you as my company during the exams.

Jing, thanks for comforting me after Econ Paper 1.

Julia, thanks for the call.

...and many other people with golden hearts who have helped me, thank you.

A-level may be evil, but it has brought us together and it has showed me who treat me as true friend and who do not.

We will succeed, maybe not in this AL thingy, but finally we will.

I'd like to dedicate this song to my lovely friends

人間---王菲

風雨過後不一定有美好的天空
不是天晴就會有彩虹
所以你一臉無辜　不代表你懵懂
不是所有感情都會有始有終
孤獨盡頭不一定惶恐
可生命總免不了　最初的一陣痛

但願你的眼睛　只看得到笑容
但願你留下每一滴淚　都讓人感動
但願你以後每一個夢　不會一場空

天上人間　如果真值得歌頌
也是因為有你才會變得鬧哄哄
天大地大　世界比你想像中朦朧
我不忍心在欺哄　但願你聽得懂

但願你會懂　該何去何從