Yes. Metamorphosis. I need it.

After the tightly-packed-treasure-hunt-like registration at HKU yesterday, I've got this idea in my mind.

I need to change. I need to evolve.

I can't be the dependent selfish ignorant little brat anymore. Mr. Oliver's words at the Graduation Day rings true not until yesterday. It's clear that in university, you have to mind your own business and nobody's gonna baby you on, nobody's gonna help unless you ask, and even if you ask, there's still chance you won't get help at all.

And I'm in a university which you're supposed to be super active to snatch opportunities from all your competitors.

After the tiring hall tours, I've come to realized that I'm so inadequate. I've done nothing except to score high. Hobbies? I've none and even I'm interested in something, I never allocate too much time on it. What more do I know except to be academically proficient? Nothing. Nothing at all.

I know what my problems are, but I've been escaping from these crucial facts of my life for 19 years. I'm indecisive. I lack self-confidence to make my own decisions. I'm overly-reliant on people's opinions and advice. And somehow I feel after the registration yesterday, I have so little time left to change all these weaknesses of mine. I have to do something about it, I have to show people that I'm working on it so as to gain as much opportunities as I can to improve myself.

After registering, I'm officially the student of HKU. Facing this brand new life, I feel that urge to become something else. Something that I've never thought I'll be. Confident, decisive, positively aggressive, sophisticated. It's what I wanna be. It's what I have to be.

I have to make the best out of my three years in this prominent university in Hong Kong. It's all up to me to choose to become a student who will jump at any opportunity to learn and improve herself and become a truly educated sophisticated person, or a student who indulges herself in immediate short-lived pleasure and all she knows is what's trendy and what's fun. And it's clear that I wanna be the former.

So I've joined AIESEC. I've decided to apply for Starr Hall. I've decided to attend the course selection briefing on my own. There're opportunities lying ahead of me, all I have to is to take the first step and snatch them.

And all of a sudden, though I'm still confused, I'm hopeful.

I can't be afraid of solitude. I can't be afraid of rejection. I can't be afraid of interviews. I can't be afraid of socializing with strangers. I can't be afraid of speaking my mind. I can't be afraid to seek help and ask questions. I can't be afraid to take a first step.

I need to change. I need to become a better person. I need to be the sophisticated Christy that I always wanna be.

And now the first thing to conquer, is the numerous thick packages I've received during the registration yesterday...although I feel like, I'm illiterate when reading all those lengthy English information...