solerWith this entry, my journal will become a hardcore head over heels Soler fanatic page.
I'm playing Soler's record over and over again, letting the twins' voices sink deep in my heart.
And all of a sudden, I thought to myself, what am I doing for my life?
Soler's been working so hard for all these years (7 years as The Economics Times reported? I'm sure there're many more years they've gone through struggling to get their way) to get their dream actualize, and here in my hands is the product of their passion and determination. Suddenly the record feels heavy. It's like, I've paid $89 to own someone's dream.
Where's my own dream? my very own aspiration? What have I done about it? Or do I have a dream at all?
I dun want that sort of larger than life plan. I just need an aim. An aim to tell me what I'm living my life for. But it seems like this whole aim has never existed.
Eveyone's telling me I did a good job coz with my A-level results, there's a pretty good chance that I'll be admitted to a university with reputation. But is that what I want? Is that what I'm truly living for?
I know nowadays it's just extravangant to talk about dreams. Reality comes like a stone wall ready to fall on you any minute and you simply have no time to dream. But dream, though it may never come true, is the drive to get one going, despite all the villains obstacles and difficulties blah blah blah in your life.
And I feel like, I'm clueless about my life. What do I want? I dunno.
Everything I've been doing is just out of duty. And I never work on my so-called dreams. Yea, maybe I wanna do something related to Psychology in the future, but what have I done about it except to get an A in this subject in A-level? Perhaps I love acting, I love movies, and as a matter of fact, I still daydream about becoming an Oscar winner one day, but what have I done except to watch movies all the time? I found Jazz interesting, but after each lesson, do I practice?
Maybe it's truly a plan of the higher powers that I fall for Soler. At least Soler's music triggers me to reflect on my own life. I'm not sure whether I'll sober up in the coming years and strive for what I aspire to be and to have, or I'll end up going on with my life cluelessly like this forever.
The only thing I know now is that I should have courage and determination like Soler's to figure out what I wanna be from now on.
And hey, it's not like what my Mom said that I only care about cute guys.
I do see beyond their pretty faces.
And in Soler, I found two beautiful passionate men loving what they do, I saw the burning flame deep beyond their hypnotizing eyes.
喂, 我唔係淨係識得貪靚仔架
